We all have our baggage in some way, and it's not worth beating yourself up thinking that you are some kind of monster. Accepting this was huge for me.
Sometimes, when we procrastinate, we do so because we need to feel control (even when the only thing we can control is choosing not to do something and even when it contributes to making our situation worse). It took me years to come to terms with this.
When you place unexpressed expectations on someone, you are the one setting yourself up to feel let down.
The fact that you are high functioning doesn't mean that your illness is easier for you to deal with. It means it's easier for others to deal with.
No one sees the version of you that you see of yourself.
My psychologist told me that learning new skills and knowledge or establishing a new habit creates new neural pathways in your brain. It's like hacking your way through a jungle; it takes a lot of time, effort, and energy to reach your destination (or achieve your goal). But every time you practice that skill or follow that habit, you reinforce that neural pathway. As it's reinforced, it becomes easier to fire up those neurons again, making it easier to do the act or behavior. The jungle is still dense, but it becomes easier to follow the same path that you created yesterday, and every time you take that path, it becomes a little more clear. Eventually, the behavior may become so automatic that it requires no effort at all. This analogy has helped me quit smoking, study for exams, and establish a walking routine when I was too depressed to move.
